Change...

Can't sleep... don't feel so hot. Decided to check my yahoo e-mail account out of pure boredom at 2:11 AM. This account is never checked because I just set it up for all of my online stuff... so my regular e-mail isn't bombarded with Facebook stuff or adds from Joann's. It works pretty well...

My old avatar caught my eye tonight. Set up when I was still living in Hawaii... dreaming of my little future life...

Funny how life can change so fast isn't it?

I sometimes have a hard time looking at pictures of myself from a year ago. Mainly from Tru's first birthday. That was the time that we started thinking about having another baby. Innocent enough right? I feel like I've aged 10 years in the last year. Makes me sad. Makes me sad to look at that innocent little family... we had no clue what would hit us in the coming year. But here we are. Making it through... I'm so grateful that we are doing as well as we are considering everything. It's just hard when you're right in the middle of it sometimes. I know that there will be bright days in the future.

For now I'll dream of my avatar with beautiful flowing hair and surrounded by wildflowers, wearing a cute skirt, and little glimpses of toe headed beauties...