Six months after chemo...
... I worked 50 hours last week. I'm so glad to have a day off. I'm exhausted...
... No one at work knows that I had cancer (except the girl who hired me). Sometimes I feel like I lead a double life.
... It's now been 1 1/2 months since I stared working with the doctors and am finally starting to feel like I'm getting the hang of this job and I just might survive this. I have to say it's a pretty amazing thing to be on the other side of the curtain.
... With that being said, I am now busier than I ever have been before. When I'm not working, I'm just trying to do laundry, dishes, spending whatever time I can with my boys... and sewing. Those are my priorities... family, work, and sewing. Because I have to do a little something for myself to have some down time.
... We are all starting to settle into this new schedule. Tru loves the people who watch him, which makes it a little easier for me to leave him. Trent is getting the hang of me not being around so much too ;).
... For the first time in our marriage our freezer is full of frozen pizza.
... I'm finally starting to feel like I have some hair on my head! It's about 3 inches (in some parts) now.
... I've now lost all of my chemo weight (10 ish lbs). Now to lose the baby weight... from a baby I had 1 1/2 years ago... that is not even here... sometimes I feel like the emotional baggage weighs a lot more than the physical.
... In my dreams at night I either have long beautiful hair, or my hair is all falling out again. I'm going to go ahead and diagnose myself with post traumatic stress disorder (and not just because of the hair).
... I've decided that all three of us are going to grow out our hair.
... I'm trying to focus a lot more on keeping my body healthy. Taking good vitamins everyday, making sure I get enough sleep, eating good healthy food (just ignore the frozen pizza comment I made earlier... it's not for me), trying to manage my stress (I think I struggle with this one the most). I just want to feel good and I'm not quite back to that yet.
... I can now run 3 miles without stopping.
... I have not been able to wear my wedding ring since December. I weight less now than I did in December so I'm not what the heck is going on! I'm trying to decide if I should pay $100 to get it re sized or just wait till I lose the weight (who knows how long that will take). I really miss wearing it...
... In this last week I do finally feel like I'm turning the corner, starting to head back uphill instead of down. Maybe that's because I've now been off chemo for as long as I was on... not sure.
I'm just glad to be where I am today instead of where I was 6 month or a year ago.
*** Now for the out takes***
I usually do this when my boy is napping... but instead I had a helper today. He wanted to pose for a picture too. Such an adorable boy! I'm one lucky mama!
9 comments:
Tru is SOOOOOOOOOOOOO cute. Loved the pic. loved the post. Congrats! It is amazing how either this last week, or the next you will start to feel a little different, a little bit better than usual, a little bit stronger, it's like a magical thing that happens right when you turn 6 months. I love your posts because they're exactly how I feel (cancer wise) its just so nice to not be alone because nobody in my family understands, and I don't want to annoy them with my cancer talk, it just feels so good to read your blog and feel so understood. I'm so grateful for you. I LOVE your hair. And I totally have the same dreams! That I either have long beajuitful hair- or that it's falling out. I hate the falling out ones, because I think "uhh all this progress down the drain" it's so awful. I don't know why- but I wish i woudl haev taken a pic of the pile of hair that fell out the time I took a shower and it all started falling out- but it was too tramatic to want to document any of it. But now I so wish I would have taken a pic cause I think it'd be a crazy pic to look at. Did alot of yours start to fal out in the shower too? Or did you bite the bullet before it started falling out alot- I don't remember anymore. glad you're getting the hang of things- glad everyone is. this yeear will go by fast, and soon you'll be home with tru. You look great i don't know what weight you're talking about.
I too love it all. I never noticed that you were not wearing your ring. How awful is that. LOL. I guess it never even crossed my mind's eye. I hope dreams never come true because lately mine have also been very stressful too.
Tru is adorable. We loved our play date at the museum/park. We'll have to have another date soon. We hope to see you Saturday. :D
You deserve a big pat on the back! Look at all the things you can do. Your hair looks so cute. I'm tempted to chop my again.
Congrats on 6 months. That's awesome that you're up to 3 miles without stopping. Way to go! You look amazing too!
I love this.
I'm so glad that you thought a picture from the start. My favorite part? I love that the background is always changing, even slightly, in ever picture. I guess that's how life is, always moving, always changing. Sometimes it's drastic, sometimes it's little by little, slowly evolving into the life that we love!
Am I feeling nostalgic, or what??
LOVE IT.
Good for you! You are amazing! Keep going!
Cool! The 23rd was your 6 mo date, and the 26th was my year! We should totally celebrate together next year. My mom took me to lunch. I really like your pictures. You look so good now. Makes me proud for some reason. Like, since you did it, it must mean that I did it too!
Wow, Six months! What a landmark! I love the four photos, such a great milestone marker. I cannot imagine your schedule right now and am so proud to know such a dedicated mother, wife, worker,and friend. You are amazing! Here's to 6 more (or a lifetime of :)) healthy months!
Thanks for being a constant inspiration!
Always love your thoughtful, heartfelt posts! You look great! Glad things are going well! And the dragon cake is incredible!!!
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