History repeats itself...

About 4 1/2 years ago...

Losing the baby:: I've talked about my miscarriage before on this blog, but about 4 1/2 years ago Trent and I thought it would be a good time to start our family. After 12 weeks of pregnancy I miscarried the baby. I had been planning on having the baby in the fall and staying at home while Trent finished up his last year of school. These plans dissolved and I needed to find another option (meaning a job).

Not able to get pregnant:: I really wanted to get pregnant again after losing that baby, but it didn't happen for a long time. It took us about a year to get pregnant with Tru after the miscarriage. A year that I spent working, trying to pass the time.

Needing to find a job:: Since I was not going to be having a baby, and I was done with school, I knew that I really needed to find a job. Living out on the North Shore of Oahu I knew that it would be hard to find a job. I also figured I would probably have to do the hour drive to Honolulu to find a job, since the part of the island we were on was considered "the country" and there wasn't a whole lot of good job opportunities out there. I prayed earnestly that I would be able to find a good job that would be good for our family.

The job:: Not too long after I started looking for a job the perfect job fell into my lap. The School of Education at BYUH needed an Administrative Assistant because the one they had was moving back to the mainland. My sweet boss, Denise, referred me to them. Her husband is part of the faculty over at the SOE and she gave me a great referral. A week after I applied to the job I was hired! This job was absolutely perfect for me at this time in our life! The building was right on the corner of the married student housing that we lived in. I could walk to work everyday. I didn't have to travel two hours a day to Honolulu... This job was very challenging for me and a lot of hard work for sure. It stretched me in ways that I didn't know were possible. I never really understood why the plan for me at that time was to work instead of starting my family, but it was. I'm grateful for that experience and feel that I have been able to be a more organized mom, wife, and homemaker because of what I learned in that job.

Flash forward to 2009/2010...

Losing the baby:: Once again, we wanted to grow our little family and I lost the baby. I was planning on having our second son in the Fall and staying home while Trent went back to school. My plans were dissolved when we lost little Clayton.

Not able to get pregnant:: I desperately wanted to get pregnant again as soon as I could after losing Clayton. However... finding out I had cancer of all things thwarted that plan. I can't even tell you the number of times I have been asked if I was pregnant over this last year due to all of the tests, scans, drugs, surgeries that I have had. It would be incredibly dangerous for me and for a baby to be pregnant during any of this. Now that I am done with all of the treatments for my cancer I have been advised by my doctors to not get pregnant for quite a while. So while I would love to be in a place in life where I can have more babies, give Tru some siblings, and stay at home with them, that is not an option for me right now.

Needing to find a job:: Trent is going to be doing a one year nursing program starting on Monday. I've known for quite a while that I really needed to find a job so that we could financially do this. Unfortunately we have not been able to save up much (any) money over this last year for his schooling because of all my medical bills. I have been so nervous about finding a job and have felt so insecure about doing this because of a few reasons. First being, hello.... I've had cancer! I waited until I felt like I didn't look like a cancer patient anymore before I even started looking for a job because I didn't want any employers to not want to hire me because of this. I gave myself until the end of July to heal and recover before starting the job search. Also, I was super nervous about even being able to find a job because the job market where I live right now is horrible!!! I think there is a 13% unemployment rate with lines and lines of people waiting for interviews when a job is available. Not a great time to be looking for a job.

*** Now... I would just like to say that at the time that I was starting to look for a job I made this connection in my mind. That I have been through a situation very similar to this before. I remembered that I had needed a job then and that Heavenly Father blessed me with the perfect job that fell right into my lap. When I made this connection I felt very strongly that this would happen again, and that I needed to calm down a little bit and let Heavenly Father work his magic for me again, because I really needed it!***

The job:: History did repeat itself my friends. The perfect job fell right into my lap. Trent had a few night classes with a girl who is the manager of a certain company (I'll tell you more about it later). He asked her if she would be hiring anytime soon and she said that she would do some hiring in the summer. I e-mailed her when I was ready to start looking for a job and she wrote me back and arranged an interview. Lets just say it was the best interview I have ever had, and she hired me right on the spot. And the job, is perfect, I am so excited for what I will be doing. The hours will hopefully be flexible enough that I will only have to work 4 days a week and spend the most time with Tru that I can. If I work it well enough Trent can be home with Tru for some of the days when I am working.

I can't help but feel incredibly blessed right now. A few weeks ago I didn't have a clue how we could possibly do any of this. Nothing seemed like it was going to work out. But I can't help but recognize Heavenly Father's hand in all areas of my life right now. I feel as though after a really hard period of trial, sadness, and hardship he is now pouring the blessings down upon our family. Getting this job is just one of the multiple blessings that have happened in the last few weeks. It truly has been miraculous to watch all the pieces come together so smoothly. I feel so incredibly blessed.

I don't want to say yet what the job is, mainly because I have two weeks of training and then have to pass a test in order to really have the job. I start training tomorrow, and I'm going to be studying a whole lot over this next little while. One thing I will say though is that it is in the medical field, which is where I really wanted to work but wasn't sure I would be able to because I have no experience working in the medical field. I'm so excited to be doing this though!

:: We went out to celebrate last week. We both got fortune cookies. Trent who never believes hidden meaning or signs in any area of his life read his fortune and said, "Wow, you have to read this!" It said... You will be saved from a financial disaster as if by magic... so true, so true.