Yep... I'm going to complain about my weight for a minute here...
So I never did lose the 15 lbs that I gained when I was pregnant with Clayton. I thought about it, but decided that I was going to try and get pregnant again as soon as I could so I didn't see much point in trying to lose the weight just to turn around and gain it back again. Well, that didn't happen ;).
Then when I started chemo I thought that I might lose some weight and that it was probably a good thing that I had a little extra weight on me because I might need it... wrong... I've been gaining on average 1-2 lbs every chemo treatment.
At first that made absolutely no sense at all because I have thrush all the time which makes it really hard to eat. Also, I've been throwing up a lot which makes it really hard to eat. So why in the world am I gaining all of this weight!
I finally thought to ask exactly what pre-drugs the were giving me before chemo. I knew that they were giving me a drug to prevent an allergic reaction to the chemo... I just assumed that it was an antihistamine like benadryl or something...
Nope... it's a steroid... I taking steroids for crying out loud!!!
No freaking wonder... one of the main side affects of steroids is weight gain. And not being able to sleep (gotcha). This is also why I wake up in the morning with a puffy face and eyes that don't want to open. I love how they just assume that you know these things... I really had no clue. I know that now is not the time to be worrying about my weight. I can't really exercise much right now and my body is going through so much right now a diet would not be a good idea either... I'm just openly acknowledging that I am packing on the pounds and there isn't much that I can do about it at this point.
It's pretty frustrating to me because if you know me... I like being fit. I like being healthy and at a healthy weight. I majored in Exercise Science of all things because I LOVE IT!
Anyway, thanks for letting me vent (like you had a choice). Here's to the 20+ lbs I've gained in 2009 and looking forward to another 6-10 to add onto it ;). So when you see me and I look a little "pudgy" just tell me that I have beautiful eyes or something will ya... thanks!
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Now scroll down about 4 posts and look at that beautiful neckline. That graceful collar bone does not know pudgy! I'm positive that you look lovely, but I'll help you pray for those next six to ten to go to the upstairs (if you catch my drift :) Oh max, I love you. and you do have beautiful eyes.
Chickapen, you still LOOK beautiful! I didn't even notice in the recent pictures! You see it because you see it every day. I see the same old BEAUTIFUL Meg I always saw! No worries! It will probably drop right off after the chemo.
of all people that could AFFORD to put on a few pounds, it's you! You're beautiful no matter what...and I don't think you can ever look "pudgy"
:)
When I saw your pic, my first thought was, "Wow, she looks great!"
I think you look amazing, as always. Scarlet was on a pretty good-sized steroid dose for over a year and as soon as she got off the drugs she went back to normal. So, you will too, I'm sure! You've got too many other things in life to stress about, don't let weight be one of them. Especially when you look awesome!
I second JaiCi's comments!
i amen all of the "you're beautiful" comments, 'cause really, you are. you've always been fit and trim and healthy, and you will be the you you're familiar with again, soon.
Haha! I have gained about 8 lb's since starting chemo, and I was so worried about keeping my weight up! I am trying to get to the gym about once a week to get my strength back up and halt the weight gain. Don't worry about loosing any of it yet. You have plenty of time.
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