Tomorrow...

Tomorrow is a big day for me. Tomorrow is the day that I find out if I still have cancer, or I don't. I honestly have no idea as to which way this is going to go. I don't dare entertain the thought that it's really gone, because I don't want to be horribly disappointed if it's not. So much rides on this. Trent is all set to start nursing school in a few weeks, but I don't know if he can do that if I still have cancer.

So the real question is what do I do today? So that I don't drive myself insane. I think I will clean... it keeps me busy, it's definitely needed around here, and regardless of what the test results show I can come home to a clean house instead of a dirty one... which always feels better. I find it's easier to work on the things that you can control, instead of the things that you can't. I have no control over what happens with my cancer. But I can control if my couch gets vacuumed out... or if the fridge gets cleaned... or what we eat for dinner. These things I have some say over, so I'm going to make the best of it!