I hate that I'm already starting to forget what it felt like to have him kicking and moving around inside of me. Life really does move on. I don't ever want to forget the lessons that I have learned from this sweet little son of mine. I don't think that I will ever forget him, not an hour goes by that I don't think about him. I also don't want to put all of my memories of him in a box and put it away. I've been putting little things around that remind me of my angel baby, things that help me remember the bigger picture and not dwell on my sorrow...
This is a picture of Trent's mom Linda. Isn't she beautiful? She passed away seven years ago from cancer and she is very missed by her family. She had 12 kids, she loved kids. When people would ask her if she had planned all of those kids she would say, "Of course, I wanted every one of them." I can't help but think that she is up there with my little boy, how could she not be? I can't think of a better person that I would want to be with my son until I see him again. I got this willow tree figurine from a dear friend after Clayton's funeral and so I've put it next to Trent's moms picture to remind me of the angel who is cuddling my baby now.
I'm not normally a big "Greg Olsen" fan, but I cried when I saw this picture (another gift). It's called "take my hand" and the little boy in the picture looks an awful lot like he could be one of my boys. Not to mention Tru has an outfit very similar to the one in the picture, an outfit I'm sure would be passed down to a little brother someday had he been around. I've put this picture in Tru's room and it makes me feel a lot of peace when I look at it and remember that our son is back with his Father in Heaven.
I ordered this mother's necklace from a very sweet lady named Joann from JJewelry on Etsy. She had so many options to choose from. I got one that has their initials on the front and their birth dates on the back. I don't know that I will ever take this necklace off again. 
So those are the little sprinkling of Clayton that I have added to our house.
7 comments:
I'm sure Linda is there with your sweet boy, too! And I love the necklace.
I think its great that you have so many things to remind you of Clayton. And I love that Greg Olsen picture also.
So sweet!
Meg. I am continually inspired by the strength of your spirit. Sending you, Trent, Clayton & Tru all our love & aloha. Love that necklace idea too, a thoughtful & gentil tribute to your sweet boys. Love you Meg!
Hey Meg,
I have hesitated to write because I was unsure of what to say.
I can't imagine what you have been going through, and it seemed impossible for me to find the right words to express my sympathy.
But I finally realized that saying something is probably better than saying nothing--even if it is a simple statement.
So, I just want you to know that I have been thinking of you and your little family.
Like I said, I can't imagine your loss, but I am really sorry that you have had to go through it.
Having said that, I also think that the way you have handled it has been truly amazing.
I look up to you in more ways than you know.
I really mean that.
Thank you TMT... but I have a question. Who are you??? I really appreciate what you've said, just want to put a face to a "name" if I do know you. Thanks again.
I love the thought that our loved ones who have passed are in close contact with our loved ones who have yet to come to the earth. I always got the very distinct impression that my deceased grandmother watched over my son before he was born. And actually one of the reasons I finally chose Benjamin as his name is because my mom told me that my grandmother had loved that name.
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