Whatever the heck I want!!!!!!!!!
Seriously though, I'm going to do whatever I want! I can't wait. The anticipation is killing me... to be able to wake up in the morning and actually feel good is such a good thought. To be able to have a whole day in front of you to do whatever you want!!! I'm really looking forward to feeling good again, that's actually a big understatement...
This is something that I've been thinking a lot about lately now that I can sort of see the finish line. The boat is coming into the harbor and I can actually see the people on the shore, hear their voices, see their faces. I can't wait to get there. I'm not quite there, but it's coming.
I could just go back to "normal" whatever normal is or was. I could just live my life the way that I did before I had this huge crash course lesson on life. But then what would the point be? What have I learned from this great lesson? My life wasn't bad before I had cancer. I wasn't doing anything that was "wrong" or that was hurting myself or my family. But I wasn't doing much to really make a difference in anything either.
So here are the things that I've been thinking of, that I want to do differently when I have the energy to do it...
- I want to enjoy the mornings. I'm not a morning person, but I don't want to waste my mornings away. I want to enjoy those peaceful moments before the stress of the day starts. So I think that I'm going to get up when Trent does in the morning and get ready before Tru wakes up. Maybe exercise or do a little yoga or something.
- I'm going to exercise... everyday! I miss this so much. I want to take care of this body that I have and do good things for it. So exercise is on the top of the list. Out of shape doesn't even begin to describe the shape I am in right now... it's more like atrophied muscles and feeling like I'm 85 years old. So I'm going to start slow with walking and yoga, but doing it everyday and working my way up to where I was before. I want to run some races, probably for the Leukemia and Lymphoma society or some other noteworthy cause.
- My family and I are going to eat healthier. We eat pretty healthy as is, I try to make sure we have veggies with dinner every night and that we drink enough water and get our vitamins. But I really need to take this to the next notch. Treats are going to be that, a treat. Not something that we indulge in all the time, everyday. I'm going to try a lot harder to make sure that we take care of these bodies and feed them what they need to be healthy and strong. Good thing my boys like fruits and vegetables more than me! I'm the one that needs to jump on the bandwagon.
- I'm going to put myself a little higher on the "importance" scale of life. I'm the type of person who usually puts myself last. I give all that I have to my family, friends, and take whatever is left which is usually nothing. I still want to put my boys and other family first, but I need to get better at saying no to the other things in life that don't even matter. I'm going to do something for myself often, even if it's something small like paint my toenails or try some new lipstick.... or buy more shoes...
- I'm going to serve more. I'm ashamed to think of how little I have done in serving other people. We have been so blessed by the service of others, there is no way we would have gotten through this crazy time if it wasn't for the help of others. I'm going to be someone who helps others, however I can. Because if you are having a good time in life and your trials and stress are minimum... there are others out there who are not. That is the time to be helping others, and I'm going to make this a priority in my life.
- I'm going to be more assertive in what I want. I'm the type of person who says, "Oh I don't care, it's not that important to me." Where in reality I do care, I do have an opinion. I'm going to voice it more and do more of the things that I want to do. This goes back to not putting myself last...
Well, that's it for now. I'm really excited to have a life back. A life beyond being sick.
8 comments:
good post- it will be wonderful when we're done with this whole mess. what are you going to be done?
Great goals Meg I can' wait to see what you can accomplish!
I know exactly what you mean. I had these same thoughts when I was still feeling yucky. I have already tried to serve more. I think it is so important to help others especially after we have been helped so much. I am also trying to cherish everyday...especially how good I feel every day. I am trying to not take my good health for granted anymore. Thanks for your post. It reminded me of all the things I vowed to do once I started feeling better. Also, it helped me decide to eat better too! Thanks!
You're so awesome! I know that if I was going through something like you, I'd be putting myself first all the time, and yet you don't. You think to serve and take care of your family!! You're such an inspiration to everyone...seriously, I wanna be more like you ;)
I can't wait to see what you start doing to enjoy life even more..
Love ya'
I think all of these things are great for everyone to do. I need to my house on my priority list. I really do like clean homes and admire those who can keep there home clean. I would add that to my list. (Without taking away from family and friends, it is a struggle sometimes.)
You go girl!!! I need to change my priority list a little myself...thank you for being the example I needed to get started...I love your blog by the way!!! And you of course;)
Yay for goals! It is so great to get back to normal. Normal sleep, normal activities. It took me a while to get back the stamina I had before. I am still working on the muscle stregth, but its getting there. And it feels good to to do it. Love getting back in shape. I can't wait till you can do it too!
Your Blog is inspiring Lady! It is amazing how much we take for granted until something life changing happens. A lot of what you are feeling are things I know I need to be better at. I am going to be making some changes to and I so appreciate your perspective. You have been amazing! Such a fighter!
Love you!
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