Less of me...

There is a song that we would sing up at Brighton Girls Camp that keeps running through my head. It's one of my favorites...

Little Less of Me

Let me be a little kinder, let me be a little blinder

To the faults of those about me, let me praise a little more

Let me be when I am weary, just a little bit more cheery

Think a little more of others, and a little less of me

Let me be a little braver, when temptation bids me waver

Let me strive a little harder to be all that I should be

Let me be a little meeker with the brother that is weaker

Think a little more of others, and a little less of me

I've been feeling the promptings of my Father in Heaven lately... prompting that aren't very comfortable. Promptings that I have settled into some really bad and negative habits and there are some things that I really need to change if I want to become a better person. I feel like over the last little while I have become extremely self centered. I have been very focused on myself, and my own problems, and not so focused on the people around me and in my life. I think that this self centeredness has hurt some of my closest friendships... which makes me very sad.

I think that it's hard, when the problems in our life seem so extreme, to not be a little self centered at times. Certainly when my main concern in life was getting myself and my family through chemo it was pretty necessary to be fairly self centered. But I have been feeling very strongly lately that the time has long since past... to be so focused on myself.

I think that it's hard sometimes too, in this world that we live in, to not be so focused on ourselves. Especially with blogging, facebook, twitter... where the whole goal of these resources is to talk about yourself. all. day. long. That everything we do is so important, we have to share it with the world, and have the world comment on our every happiness and frustration in life. I know that I have been sucked into it. I read something that said that facebook brings out the narcissist in everyone, and I can certainly see that in myself sometimes (I'm not saying everyone on facebook is narcissistic... that's just something I read).

I'm grateful to have a Father in Heaven that loves me enough to point out my flaws, so that I can humble myself and change. I'm sorry if you have been one of the people in my life who has been my patient friend, and sat and listened to me whale on about my life and problems and I probably didn't take the time to talk to you about yours. Hopefully soon... you will not be able to say that about me anymore ;).

My point of this post is really more my open resolution to try and be a little bit less about me... and more about those that I love and care about in my life.