Lately I've been feeling like I'm stretched too thin... I feel like all I do is run around trying to keep this wild child out of the toilet, out of the cupboards, out of the fireplace... At the same time trying to get my house cleaned and organized, just to have it all undone in a matter of seconds...
It was a hard weekend... lets just put it that way. I felt like I was on the verge of tears the whole time. Nothing was working out. I hate it when it gets that way, where you feel like everything you do you can't do right. I guess this just comes with the territory of being a wife and mom.
Sunday we went to church, and it was my week to take Tru to Relief Society (we switch off every other week). Usually I spend the whole time trying to keep him from face planting off the chairs, keep his little hands out of all the ladies purses, trying to keep him from talking too loud and disrupt the other women. I don't know why I even go most of the time because I really don't listen to the lesson...
This week was different. Tru didn't sleep well the night before and didn't get a good morning nap. So by the time R.S. rolled around, he was soooo tired. During the opening song he fell asleep with his little head laying on my chest, his feet curled up on my lap. HE STAYED ASLEEP THE WHOLE TIME!!!! Tru NEVER falls asleep on me anymore and hasn't for months and months! It was wonderful!!! I was able to listen to the lesson and hold my sweet little boy the whole time.
I miss looking into that sleeping face. When he was first born I would just sit and stare at him sleeping, so peaceful! Now, I just put him in his crib and never get to see him sleeping. So this was a real treat for me. I'm grateful for that 40 minutes that I got to hold my sleeping boy, and look into his little chubby face. I love him so much. Moments like that make the craziness all worth it.
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6 comments:
Lucky! Mae doesn't sleep ANYWHERE but her crib, and I understand the running around like crazy. I hate those days. But then those moments make it completely worth it, and I remember that what really matters is not a clean house or getting artwork done, it's hearing my daughters laugh or getting a hug from her.
I hear ya on the running around. When I'm at home I feel like the only time I get to actually sit down is when Joshua's in bed. Sundays are my favourite because after sacrament is passed I go and put Joshua to sleep in my arms. It's so fun to watch your child sleep! I think Heavenly Father knows when we're getting at our wits end because it's always at that time when the sweetest moments happen.
I totally know what you're talking about! I think every church-going mom has wondered the same question. I heard someone comment during a lesson about this that we need to go for our children. We may not get a single thing out of church, but they are learning what our priorities are by being there every week anyway. Something that helps me when I'm feeling on the verge of tears is to remember how fast this time will go. I try to picture myself in my 40s and 50s wondering why I was always so stressed and depressed about everything. I need to remind myself not to worry so much about a clean house and all the little things that are hard to keep up on. You know whats really important...just remind yourself of that everyday. You are such a great mom Meg,and I think you are so talented and amazing. Keep up the good work and treasure those precious moments.
Isn't the little moments of peace the best. I am glad you were able to enjoy it. Let me know if I can help with anything. :D
I am sure that you are a great mom, it just gets harder to get anything done the older they get. I am so glad you got that sweet moment at church.
so i've read this post about 4 times now, so i ought to leave a comment:
i love the moments. sometimes i feel like it's God's way of tugging us along in motherhood. if it was always sweet we wouldn't appreciate it. if it was always difficult we wouldn't want to have more than one. so we trudge through the difficult times hoping another sweet moment is around the corner.
i love motherhood.
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