A few random thoughts about today...

I have a few random thoughts about today….
First of all, Happy Birthday. I guess that’s why all these things are floating around in my head and I can’t seem to sleep.

Sometimes Tru stares out into space and just starts grinning his head off. I like to think that he is smiling at you. I also like to think that you held him and played with him, and pinched his cute little cheeks and kissed his little bald head until he was ready to be sent down to us.

Sometimes when I think that I can’t really do this, I remember that you did this twelve times. That honestly is what gets me through sometimes, I am just amazed by that. Not only amazed, but honored to know and love all of your children. They are my best friends.

Trent sleeps under the denim and camo blanket that you made for him almost every night.

Thank you for letting me know that I too was meant to be part of your family. They have been one of the best things that has ever happened to me. I know that you must have been such a wonderful mother because you raised the most amazing son to be my husband, and for that I am eternally grateful.

I try to do things that will remind Trent of you. I need to try harder. Things that I need to remember to do is to plant paper-whites every winter, start celebrating Trent (and Tru’s) un-birthday every month…… I also need to learn how to plant a garden. Trent has been asking me for weeks why I haven’t planted tomatoes for him yet.

We did plant paper-whites this winter…. and they were absolutely beautiful.